Just sitting and that sudden hit of feelings when you think about your whole life that what things are there which you’ve faced and you’re still surviving and fighting constantly over everything. Whenever you’re thinking bout settling down you’re just fucked up, you do everything for a person you like or love or in friendship or relationship no matter whatever the relationship is you always over do things and still you’re the bad person.
My life is like that from childhood suffering from family issues, you do everything for your family and you’ve never been appreciated. I’ve left home and never went back and stayed there and spent the night, just think you’ve been molested by relative when was little you’ve never told that to your family, you’ve been almost raped, you’ve been cheated on and there’s no count of that, you’ve been blackmailed for pictures which are fake, your number has been viral your pictures has been viral which are photoshoped every possible person you know coming to you and telling you I’ve heard your pictures are viral and nobody is there with you you’ve been fighting alone since childhood, your mom dad are unofficialy separated, you know nobody will understand ever, you’ve been cheated on by your sister who used to be your everything, you’ve been used for love and once they’re done taking love they’re done with you, every single person approaches you with the intention of being physical with you, every person is physically attracted to you, you’ve been to hookups but everyone just used you, done damage to your body, you’re constantly struggling hard to get yourself settled, you’ve been managing everything alone, you’ve gone through phase where you didn’t have place to stay, food to eat, you earn your own and it’s just maximum people you know are toxic for you and days after days you’re in physical pain and all of a sudden you get to know you’re sick you’re under medication and still person you know that’s not good for you wants to meet still you met because you think he’s your friend and just because that person is lonely he forces you to be with him and damages to your body again. After all these you leave your work just because you couldn’t take anymore mental pressure and toxic people, still you’ve some faith left in humans.
And after you’ve done self harm, attempted suicide been hospitalized for that and you’ve overcome evrything but still you’re strong af but you’re done with everything too. You’ve left everything, you’re not studying, you cannot focus on anything and that thing is bothering you so much because you know you’ve to do something in your life and you’ve to settle down because your parents are working hard and you cannot see that anymore, and you know you cannot share anything to anyone.
Isn’t it something where you’ll also loose everything? Is that normal? Will you not be tired? Though i hope you all are doing well and if not don’t worry you’ll be fine eventually it’ll pass and i know you’re strong enough to handle everything. Take care.
Stories Of Life 