After a long time again I’m writing, ik people who read my shit knows I always write when I’m low af but trust me I’ve been lowest af but I didn’t write, why? Because I’ve been a lazy ass. Well people whom you’re friends with changed a lot isn’t it? They’re tryna figure out themselves just like you’re doing, i hope everyone stays good in their life once they were a part of my life, specially the people I thought they’re a part of me.
I’ve been dealing with new people lately, and it’s kinda going okayish made new friends oops no jk, they’re only colleagues and that’s how you should address them because even if you tryna be friends at the end of the day they’ll make you feel that you only work with them. Anyways I’ve been in love again broke my heart and now I’m over it, i promise. I’m just trying hard af to figure out my life, it’s just sad to realise always that love isn’t for me but I always forget that, nobody will love me or do things for me, not gonna treat me the way i do everything for them. I really have to control my emotions and that is the one thing I’m weak and very bad at. I’ll always run after love, a better treatment and I don’t realise that I’ll end up being the same heartbroken, lonely and I’ve been facing so many stuffs but I’m honestly proud of myself that I’m able to overcome everything and stay still, I may not be mentally stable enough but I am strong to make myself understand and save myself from shits. I honestly think I can legit write a book about me. Omfg seriously at the age of 20s who handle this much nobody, atleast people i be with they don’t. I know there are so many people going through so many things and everyone have their struggle but atleast they’ve got somebody and look at me man I’ve got no fuckin one and I honestly couldn’t understand this till now why its like this. May be I’m the flag or may be i only be with people who’re the red flags. I’m so tired of this shitty life yet I’m enjoying, tryna be happy, tryna make myself give everything all I deserve, i know i don’t completely but yes I’m trying and I so wanna know when it’ll end but may be never until I get tired af and just be like I’m so done. I also don’t like ranting about my stuffs always, but this is the only place where I rant my heart out and it feels better. You know i can be out of all my sad era if I’ll be rich enough to make myself satisfy with things but I’ve such a bad fate that it’s just always shitty. See while writing this rn a plan got dropped which made me feel a bit better that finally I’ll sit with someone and drink feel less lonely in weekends but here I’m.
Well well enough of writing, ik i can write more but I’ll not, lol. If you’re reading this know that you’re more than enough and every bad things will eventually end.
~ Sagarika Bhattacharya
Stories Of Life 