Heyaaa! Back again with rantings but honestly rn I’m very sad. I’m low af rn, idk why there’s no good in my life why if 1% good happens the bad happens doube to that! Rn I’m remembering every bad memories and traumas of mine from all the childhood till now. I’ve with dealing with kidney stones though ik that’s not really a big deal but the pain the suffering handling it all by nobody being by my side but I’m here. Do i really deserve that or am I a really bad person to suffer through every bad things?
I just realized rn there’s nobody actually i could talk to when I’m feeling this much low i can only write everything here and feel a bit better because atleast nobody will revert any lecturers or words like “you’re stong”, “you’ll face everything by yourself ” “everything will be alright” .
I’m so tired of these lines and i just cannot make anyone understand i don’t wanna be strong. I just wanna feel good, just like other girls I also wanna feel loved, just like few girls even i wanna be pretty, I’m so tired of people leaving, cheating, trying to get into pants, attracted only physically. I’m so done! I also wants my parents to be together, i want them to be with me specifically at this time. I’m tired of doing everything alone hustling so much. Will things will ever be worth it?
If someone cannot be with family or parents, they have money or a good life or a good boyfriend or something. What do I’ve? Absolutely nothing.
I’m so done and tired, i wanna stop feeling stuck, i wanna be free, i wanna be happy not for just the half of the day, for a while atleast. The only thing coming on my mind rn is I JUST WANNA DIE..
Stories Of Life 