The title is Bengali and it means ‘my heart’. And yk when I used tell people I write only when I’m sad, it used to be funny but I just realised I legit write here only when I need to vent and can’t keep everything inside.
Writing it out is always better than sharing with someone. Today I’d like to share about idk whatever phase is going on for me.
Well first of all i think I lost my charm I lost the jittery version of me, my glow and my will to do things for myself it’s not like I don’t want to it’s more like I’m trying but couldn’t do it.
Feels weird myself because it’s not that I’m trying to do things for myself only, I’m trying to give to people I’m close to as well but I think it’s never enough for anyone and it’s not one person it’s almost all and I’d genuinely like idk where I’m lacking, or it’s them or it’s me that I’m unable to do it.
Im somewhere in my life where I just cannot go to anyone to speak my heart out and I’ve tried a lot infact even with the person I love but I don’t know at this point I am letting it on god and the universe if we’re meant to be we would be together and if not then my life would be changed again lmfao fr my life isn’t less than a movie.
Earlier people used to tell me but now I feel like it, my life is happening af and I do enjoy it but I’m tired of the heartburn and it made me feel like a emotionless man I swear. I forgot how butterflies feels how going out having fun feels how living without stress feels, but.
The situation or phase im in rn it made me feel emotional and after so much in my life rn being this emotional and then going back to that same alone being strong thinking about it makes me feel awful and I don’t know what the future holds for me, but.
Universe got me, they’ll save me and my over confident ass as always thinks I’ll figure it out so yeahh I’ll figure it out.
Ahhhhh! Actually feels better.
Thanks ❤️
~ Sagarika Bhattacharya
Stories Of Life 