This is a blog i don’t want anyone to read it who knows me because i really don’t want someone to pity me who doesn’t even care.
Well hi everyone whoever is reading me, i hope you’re doing good and getting what you really need or want. I’m really happy if you’re doing, just be the happiest. If anything isn’t working then don’t worry it will be fine soon just give it sometime. Don’t loose your hope.
I know I’ve been telling everyone that every positive possible things which i really feel but here I’m feeling really low and bad about myself, may be I’m getting into depression well i might be into it already but nobody knows or feel anything or may be as usual I’m the one who’s overthinking. I’m having a fuck*d up schedule, cannot focus into things not even my studies or something else, i don’t feel like to anything just sitting in a place all the day, everyone is telling me to get better but nobody is telling me how to do that. I’ve some counted people by my side but everyone just do is telling me not to think anything and i don’t even know how tf that works.
I’m being a boring, sad, introvert kid that nobody wants, well moreover i just see people to leave after they’re done making me attached to them. It feels really lonely to be like this always, it feels bad that nobody gets you, it’s suffocating to be like this, to be strong, everytime i just get to hear that “you’re strong you can do it ” but I’m just tired of being strong. I want happiness too, i want some freedom too i want to make my family proud of me, i want to make myself proud but I’m trying very hard it just that I’m not succeeding and it sucks.
I really hope i get better soon, i don’t wanna be alive just physically 🙂 Thank you for reading it and hope you people stay safe. Good luck ahead for present only will see future later!
~ SAGARIKA BHATTACHARYA
Stories Of Life 